I’ve been meaning to put these up after taking their photographs and it always slips my mind whenever I write. I’m just going to photo-clusterbomb it all in one post so I delete them from my hard drive forever.
The Porno
I’ve mentioned that I like to keep track of who visits my page and from where. Another thing I like to check out is how people find me through search engines. This is one I found back in mid-February and I still have no idea that this sequence of words made any sense at all.
I mean, were they having an orgy while overdosing on SSRIs…? I really wouldn’t recommend that!
The Star Wars
During the holidays, my mum got me the LEGO Y-Wing and I immediately assembled it when I got back home. It really put me in my happy place as I just zoned out everything and started building. It got so happily bad that I bought two more…neither that I can afford to.
Yeah, they look kick-ass and they did an excellent job of controlling my anxiety and its attacks, but…it pretty much pushed it back and created more now that I’m broke. Oops!
My counsellor and people in group therapy told me that it’s a good thing, and that it’s better than getting high off heroin; which, price-wise, isn’t that much different. I still feel guilty, but I still play with them while making the screeching noise the TIE Fighter makes.
The Do It For Daron
My regular readers (if they’re still around since I don’t post enough) would know that I started out in hockey as a skater first before I transitioned into goalie this past October. Last year, while I was still assembling my skater gear, I bought a DIFD sticker for the back of my bucket. I went back to the store I bought it from and got another one for my goalie bucket.
For those of you who don’t know, DIFD stands for the subtitle I gave this section: Do It For Daron, and this is the story behind it.
The Exam Season
I took this picture last semester, and totally forgot about it until now.
Granted, this is only for Ontario, but if this exists here, then chances are, something similar exists outside of it. Use it. I think I’ll need its services soon myself…
That’s it for now. I’ve been feeling a (4.5) since my last post. I’m still feeling very antsy about securing a job here and about my finances. Here’s a random song.
So I’m procrastinating. I have so many things due in later weeks, but can’t seem to get myself working on them. I’ve also written quite a bit in the past couple of posts about what goes on in my head during this hockey thing this semester. Usually, I do my experimenting with golf like this one, but lately, it’s been about hockey.
To recap from last post, I did not get that trapper. I got this awesomeness instead.
I have no idea who Murray is, but I’m glad the fact that I bought it for ten bucks covers his name. This is such an old school blocker and was perfect for my price range, too. I’m so much more happier with this purchase than the trapper that I would’ve had to spend so much time wearing in.
The Pressure (Is On)
Hockey is a lot more fun when you’re winning. We won 13-6 a couple of weeks ago, but lost 12-9 the following week. I was quite mad at myself for losing the game because we had a shot at claiming sole possession of second place this coming week if we had won that game. Now, we can only hope to tie for second, and that’s if we have more goals during the season than the other team, otherwise, third. Most of our core guys didn’t show up because it was St. Paddy’s Day, but that’s not an excuse: the other team didn’t even have any subs and were on the floor the entire time. I really wasn’t feeling it that game either. I was carrying a hockey bag and my neck muscles usually stiffen up whenever there’s a heavy load on my shoulders, so my flexibility was diminished. My stance was also wider for some reason so a hell of a lot of shots were going through my 5-hole (between my legs). I figured out how to correct that, and I bought another, wheeled hockey bag (and selling the old one for a profit), so we’ll see how it goes this Sunday. Another thing that may have caused our defeat was my cardio. I didn’t work out much during last week, so that may have also been it. I’m fairly certain we have clinched playoffs (there really wasn’t anything specific said about it, hence, I think) so the playoff beard is being grown….now.
At the same time, I’ve also been registered in an ice hockey league. I was supposed to play last week, but because no one had deigned informed me that I needed a full face mask to be an accepted player, I kept my visor installed on my helmet and wasn’t allowed to play. I was pretty annoyed about that, but I stayed anyways to cheer my new team on, and see how they play. They can skate circles around me. Today was the first game I played with them, and we lost. I was pretty upset about that, seeing as how I think I may have tipped the chemistry of that team because of my lack of skating abilities compared to these guys. At the same time though, I had an assist, a minus 1, and logged about a minute and a half of ice time per shift (lost count of how many shifts I took).
I’ve asked a couple of hockey forums and everyone says that based off my stats, it was just a coincidence that we lost today. I am glad that I registered my first ever point in my first ever organized game though, and it could’ve been a lot worse if I was at a minus 3, but still…the win would’ve been nice. Imagine that, being insecure about the outcome of a game played. (3)
In terms of relieving all the anxiety and negative thoughts, it hasn’t been 100% effective, but it’s pretty high up there. In the games and scrimmages I’ve been playing, it really helps to get together with a bunch of random people whom I’ve never met and start playing a game that everybody enjoys. I think it goes back to when I was just starting out in golf. When you learn something new and able to apply it consistently, you get that awesome feeling of accomplishment. I had a couple of people tell me that I’ve improved a lot already in just two weeks.
So after Sunday night’s game, I have two weeks to prepare for the playoffs. I’m so punishing my body in preparation for it…going to be so much fun.
This pressure should be an experiment on its own, but I think my personality to win would confound the entire thing. Regardless, I think I’ll put in some numbers after each game…even though there’s only three minimum left. đ
The Mental Stuff
Okay, no more hockey stuff. Okay, fine, maybe one more. When I was buying my helmet, they had this box where you drop coins in for this sticker.
That stands for Do It For Daron. This is the story behind it. I’m proud to have that sticker on my helmet, even if nobody notices it. (I sure as hell don’t notice what other players have on theirs. lol) That little girl has done so much after her death, and mental health needs to be put on the forefront of everything because it’s all around us.
Historically, hockey has always been a little behind the times. It’s the last professional sport out of the Big 4 to have a coloured man play, so hockey has been trying to bring this out to the open along with the other sports.
Here’s a random song. I actually tried going through my library for a song that has a purple music video, but gave up and hit the shuffle like I normally do and this came up. I searched for the link on youtube and this was the first hit. It’s a sign. đ
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