I think it’s fitting that I’m writing just before, and probably during, my Abnormal Psych class because I’m sitting at a good (5) right now. That may not be a big thing, but when I was sitting at a pretty (1) since yesterday and jumping (4) points to a (5) at this moment, I think it deserves to be recognized.
The Replay
This is actually pretty close, in terms of context, to what happened with the NFL referees this week, and I’m pretty sure this is a blown call. I’ve been talking to this one chick for the past couple of days and it’s been going pretty well. We share the same sense of humour, which is awesome, and even the same job. I e-mailed her last night and accidentally clicked on the “like picture” button on the dating website. Yeah, I really do like the picture, but it’s also a fairly revealing picture, and the only one that shows her cleavage. She has read the e-mail and hasn’t replied. Coincidentally, this is also around the time for my 24-hour decay on my Cipralex. It’s actually been closer to 26-27 hours, but I’ve been feeling its effects for quite a while now; just not this strong, maybe closer to a (3). All this before a 3-hour Abnormal Psych class with a lecture on anxiety. Dammit…
I am, however, starting to feel moderately better after a few minutes of writing, somewhere around a (3). I can’t wait until I get back and take my Cipralex.
The Ankle
It’s actually doing pretty well. I can finally put about 80% of my weight on it, and against my physiotherapist’s orders, I went skating yesterday. She mentioned something about balance when she was telling me not to, but I didn’t understand what she was talking about. Man, did I find out. My left skate was wobbling all over the place, even with me concentrating on it. I only went for a light skate, about 9 laps in 40 minutes, but called it quits once I felt a tinge of pain. My physiotherapist said that I should be strengthening it with some range exercises and stretches, and I can’t think of anything else to strengthen it than some light, low-impact exercise. Not sure if that’s a good or bad thing, but she didn’t really say anything to strike fear into my heart not to do it…she actually didn’t say anything about it.
The Aftermath
It took a while for me to get home to take my pill, on account that I had to hobble over to the grocery store for a bit of food, and bumped into someone as well. During that entire time, it felt like I was fighting myself over those thoughts, but when I did take my pill, it was almost instant relief. It did take about 5 minutes for it to have any effect, but when it did, I was pretty tired by the end of it. Not only did I have a sore ankle and arm (crutch) from all that walking, but it felt like I just got off a really small anxiety attack like the one back in July. Suffice it to say, I really didn’t get as much as I wanted done today.
On the plus side, I spent a bit more money today on a bass tab book on The Offspring’s greatest hits. I tried to learn a few intros while I was waiting for the Cipralex to kick in, so that’s something new that should help in alleviating the anxiety. I also saw a cheap pair of headphones for my amp so that I can play my electric instruments without disturbing anyone in the house.
So, I’m going to give myself a good (5) today all in all because the anxiety certainly overshadowed everything. I’m going to miss being perfectly sane for the next few days, since I suspect it’ll take a while for the pills to realign their effectiveness in my hippo’s campus again. Here’s a song with a bass riff that I want to learn.
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